and even this poem sucks

In the midst of all the busy-ness

as life flourishes

and projects and plans march onward, resolutely,

and people reach out to help

to participate,

offering skills and supplies

free of charge

given with love,

and others call just to check in

making sure I am well

and drinking tea,

and everything in the world is going my way

my mother is nursing a dying husband

my aunt will have to sell her home

my grandfathers are both unwell

and the anniversary of dad's death is just around the corner

an eternal blight on the day of love

and it's been a long time since I've had someone to hug me a bit

or kiss the top of my head

or hold my hand while I sleep

and writing songs is on my to-do list everyday

and never gets done

and even this poem sucks

exhausted

emptied out from giving my all

hurting mostly from always wearing the brave face

I would that I could cry

but it just doesn't seem right